To my wonderful parents who have helped me so much in my endeavors in my education and helping me achieve this life time goal of doing a semester abroad. To the rest of my family who encouraged me to go for my dreams and continue to encourage me to keep reaching. To my friends who even though I am over 5,000 miles away encouraged me to go study abroad and could still make me laugh till my sides hurt in another time zone. All of you are extremely special to me and this trip has molded and shaped me into a little bit of a different person.
Over this past semester I have changed and learned so incredibly much, not just academically but, personally, spiritually and relationally.
Academically this has been a mixture of easy and difficult. Difficult because of how condensed and fast paced everything was. For some things it is just way cooler and sticks with you more when you can actually go and stand in the location that these events took place. For example I never would have gotten what I did out of the reformation class if we had not actually gone and been in all these spots that Martin Luther had been at. It is a whole lot more interesting and meaningful to be standing in all these important world historical spots, it is always one thing to be reading about them in a history book with the notion in the back of your head that one day you will eventually see these things after you read about them, but to see them while you are reading about them makes the experience more meaningful.
In the aspect of personal growth, it is a whole other ball game for me now. Before I came here I was a little intimidated about just jumping in head first with people that I have no idea who they are. Usually I would sit by the sidelines and people watch them for a while before I made a decision about getting involved with them. Now I am not even afraid to walk up to some random stranger and ask them for help, I can do it in a foreign language even! By myself I never would have thought about navigating a whole huge city by myself such as Portland, even if I can speak the language fluently, now after navigating foreign cities, foreign transport systems and driving in England; a road trip across the states sounds like a piece of cake. I am more apt to doing things on the fly now as compared to before I like to have things planned out really well. I am more comfortable with who I am as a person and know where my limits are.
Spiritually, I have grown a lot. Before coming here I never really specifically set apart time to actually sit down and read my Bible. This semester I have had ample amount of time to begin diving in deeper to what the Bible has to say about everything and anything that is going on in my life. I have always tried at home to be disciplined about reading but because I had a regular routine that I have followed for as long as I can remember that never had included a devotional time. When I get home from here I will have to form new routines and it is my heartfelt desire to stay in a devotion time and reading my Bible. What I spent a majority of my time reading over here was the Psalms. Being away from my loved ones for this long and not being able to go home when I missed mom’s home cooking, talks with dad, and laughing till I was crying with my friends at Corban has probably been one of the most difficult things that I have done in my life and the Psalms just have a lot of words of encouragement that truly helped.
Relationally, I have learned how to be thrown into a group of people who I hardly know and be able to function and found a relationship with each and every one of the people in the group. Doing a study abroad program puts one out of context, which is a good thing, there are no preconceived notions about who the people are that you will be living with for the next few months. I have learned how to deal with people that drive me nuts and be able to deal with them in a proper grown up manner. I have not grown relationally with the people who were here with me in Germany, but I have grown with the people back home as well. Although it is extremely difficult to be able to feel totally connected with your friends and family back home, I learned quickly how to. Wether it be a quick e-mail to my mom or dad, a Facebook status, a blog post, a single instagram photo, or a short 10 min FaceTime call to other friends or family members; it is enough to show that you are still trying to be connected. Before I came here to AMBEX I fell for this absolutely amazing guy and the topic of a long-distance relationship came up and that was one of our major concerns and something we talked about often. For this trip I am extremely grateful, it made us communicate and actually talk about things and I learned things that I probably never would have learned if it had not forced us to talk.
Honestly everyone has some sort of stereotype that is in their head about one person or nation, I know I did. When I thought of Germany I had always thought of these super strict, rude, and intimidating people. Some of these have decent grounds for being stereotyped, they are strict because they like order, but they really do know how to go out and have a good time with friends as I went a did with Anna on multiple occasions. They seem rude because American’s are use to making direct eye contact with people on the street and waving to friends when you randomly see them when you are out, German’s did not how up with that so it is weird for them and not culturally acceptable. German’s seem intimidating because of their directness, they do not beat around the bush or sugar coat anything, as I learned from hanging out with Anna. When you sit down and get to know who the person is it makes one not as quick to judge or to form instant opinions about the people you are with.
From here on out I can guarantee that I am a slightly different person. Traveling seems to do that to a person, especially if you have been away from your home country for an extended period of time. You get to see and experience so many new things. It opens ones eyes up to issues that you never knew about. It turns some of your thoughts and may even turn the very plan that you had for yourself on it’s head. Living in Germany has made me more culturally aware and interested in actually finding out what is going on when things blow up in the news, you get different sides of the story and can then from there form a more educated opinion on what is happening. I think that, after living in Europe for a time, there are some things I would truly love to bring home to the States. For one, the work ethic and the work appreciation that both employees and employers have for one another, it is incredible and would be so beneficial to the States. In the long run I can see Europe going far and becoming an even larger super power, maybe even surpassing the States. I see for the States, that they really are not the “it factor” the people that they think they are. The States are only out there for themselves, and will do whatever is best for their own interests, and that makes me sad because we have so many problems in our own system that need to be worked out before we can be of any help to any other nations that need it or to get caught up into another world war.
After a trip like this one just does not roll right back into the routines that you left behind to come here. Life might not be as exciting when I get back, it is not like I can say “Hey I’m going to Paris this weekend the snowboarding in Switzerland next weekend!”, but then again life is only as exciting as you make it. I will not have the exact same routine when I get home. I am more willing to cook, thanks to the fact that hostel food really makes you miss being able to cook on your own. I am more willing to do laundry, due to the fact it is free at home. I am even more willing to fold and put away my clothes in my drawers after doing the laundry because I am SO tired of living out of a suitcase. I am willing to put in the effort it takes to make regular time with God. I will make more time for my family and friends because I know now more than ever how important they are to me. I know lots of things that I will take back home with me, but most importantly how incredibly blessed I have been to be able to experience this wild adventure that I have had the privilege to be on for the past few months.